Over the years, I have heard a handful of messages by a few different pastors about the various things we set up as idols in our lives. Their lists always include "job, sex, money and children." I have often heard idol defined as "whatever we spend most of our time thinking about or doing."
I always bristle when I hear this particular flawed definition because if it were the only definition we'd all have to agree that most men and many women would idolize their jobs {since they spend most of their waking hours at work.} And, all stay-at-home moms would surely idolize their kids and family. The Proverbs 31 woman would definitely idolize her family because she spends all of her time focused on caring for them. A more accurate definition of idol is something we set up as God in our lives, something that takes the place of God in affecting the decisions we make, & something that interferes with our relationship with God. A godly mom will spend most of her time and energy on her family, but everything she does should be to the glory of God while she is in constant fellowship with Him and acting on His power and not her own.
Sadly, I have even heard a few pastors say that women who "keep having babies" idolize their children and are trying to "fill themselves up" by having more and more children.
I wonder if this message breaks the heart of the Creator of all Life. Ultimately it comes down to who we believe creates all life. Is it us or God? Do we really have that much power? I also wonder if this is a message only common to our "money and success, American dream saturated" culture. In order to achieve the American dream, we must limit the number of children we have because having more will ultimately get in the way of the plans we have for our lives.
James and I have had many conversations about this topic and studied what the bible has to say about children. We aren't completely rigid in our thinking, but we are definitely leaning in one direction over another. We are still mulling all of this over and considering the viewpoint held by some families that, "Children are a gift of the Lord," and that there is no other gift we would limit that He would give us. Why do we feel like it is not only our job to make sure we only have a few, but that those who have more are freaky families who idolize their children.
Here is the most radical part of my thought process this morning. When we consider the reasons why we might choose to limit the number of children God would give us, we may just reveal the true idols of our heart.
We want to get on with the next phase of our lives and be able to go more places and play more interactive games with the whole family. {freedom}
Children are expensive and we want to be able to save plenty for retirement. {money}
We want to have more free-time to serve. {notoriety--there is no reason we can't serve with our children [it may just look different than we prefer]and they are our first ministry after all.}
There are so many more reasons we might limit the size of our family, but are we supposed to do it? I think this is a question every family has to answer for themselves. Some people have serious health concerns or other very legitimate reasons to limit the number of children they have. We are still praying about what God would desire of our family. I would just encourage every individual to take it before the Lord and truly make it a matter of obedience to whatever HE asks of you, not just a fulfillment of your own dreams and plans for your life.
At this point if you are still reading this you either agree with me or hate me for voicing my radical thoughts. Just know that most of my friends disagree with my viewpoint and I STILL LOVE THEM. I know many of the stances I take on certain issues are radical, but that doesn't mean I lack respect for those who disagree. I just think so many issues that are really "God issues" have been so incredibly impacted and shaped by our culture and I want to always challenge myself and others to take it back to the bible and talk to God before accepting what the world is feeding us wholeheartedly just because our "Christian friends or pastors believe it."
That's all...
p.s. No, I am not writing this because I am pregnant. In fact, I think I may be starting menopause early, so all of this talk is just me philosophizing. BUT, we have also been praying about whether or not God would have us adopt at some point, so we may still be growing one day...